I have spent a lot of time in deep thought this week, which is not always a good thing. I have discovered that I am being stretched and growing faster than I thought I could. The kids are changing and growing so fast. I cannot believe Madi is 7. I sit and marvel at how truly amazing she is. She is so aware of me and what I need and feel. She is extra silly when she can see that I am stressed and always aware of every little thing Brig does. About a week ago, my mom looked at me and said do you see yourself in Madilynn. I said sometime when she takes care of Brig. Then my mom pointed out how I was so much like her as a child. Since then I have pondered my madi and the mother I am to her. It helps to recognize how we are similair so that I can relate to her. I am so blessed to have her. Then Billy he will forever keep me on my toes. I am sure Billy loves me but not always so sure he likes me. So I have strived to be on more of his little boy level. I am terrible at it but he is starting to play with me more. So there is hope he will like me one day. Aubree is my little angel. She is so sensitive and so mouthy. I am sure she gets her smart mouth from me. She is not a typical girl and keeps a lot of her emtions (espeacially sad) to herself. I really have to watch her closely. Brig is a teddy bear. He is full of love, patience, kindness, happiness and cuddles. He truly is a peacemaker to the very core. My big question I have been pondering is how do I be a mother to all of these different personality. I know who has the answer and have asked. So now I am seeing my weakness as a mother and heavenly father is teaching me (very quickly). I will just keep counting my blessings (each one of them) and continue to try to be the mother they each need and deserve. I grateful I am for repentance.